Sunday, March 28, 2010

well, well

well, since its mostly about reading...

Long time no see,

Hm its been a while. Not sure why. I guess I just haven’t felt like it.

Only 4 more weeks of this semester left. But 3 papers due in the next two weeks, two more after that. Tests, etc, etc. I’m so over it. reading to do. But then 3 finals and freedom. I still need a job for this summer. I guess I should be getting on that. Damn.

4 weeks till the wedding. I’ll be so happy when all the stress associated with it is over. I mean, heck, its not even my wedding.

A friend just told me that she’d give me free pizza if I come see her at work tomorrow. I should, but I just hate doing anything that takes me out of my stupid boring routine. I mean all I do when I’m here is go to school and come back to the apartment. Do homework, surf the web. I think by not forming any attachments I’m not helping myself out. But I don’t really care. I don’t like it here and I don’t need to. I’ll be done in two semesters. But it won’t be soon enough.

I’m sort of hungry. I guess I should have actually eaten dinner. That might be the problem. But now its 10 and that’s a bit late.

Finished Frankenstein this weekend. Such a boring, depressing book. I hate assigned reading. Except two books that I’ve read this semester for my gender and religion class that have been quite good. (the handmaid’s tale and the red tent). I’ve got to read another one for that class called Iran awakening. But that’s for an extra credit paper. Although my grades haven’t been stellar in that class so I’ll need the extra credit to get a good grade.

I’m proud of myself because this semester I’ve pretty much done every extra credit opportunity available. Even when I don’t want to. I force myself. Because every little bit helps. I’ve got to start on my stupid religion paper because if I turn it in a week early then I get bonus points. Damnity damn damn.

Well I’m going to go continue reading Deathly Hallows. Finally some good assigned reading!

Saturday, March 20, 2010

a very potter weekend

The gate at the side of our house. These flowers have completely taken over our side fence. It's kind of amazing.

Good Evening,
I have spend most of this weekend re-reading harry potter, and it just so happens that the movies are playing on ABC family. So I’ve been watching those as well. The fourth one’s on right now.

I’m on the sixth book right now, I’m reading them for my Harry Potter class. I definitely read until 3 am this morning because I wanted to finish book 5. Its amazing how addicting they are, even when you know exactly whats coming…

I’ve also caught this really lovely cold from my bff/roommate. I hate being sick. Especially when you aren’t sick enough to actually get to stay in bed. You’re just sick enough to be miserable. YUCK. I would really like to go to sleep, but I know I won’t be able to breathe well. bleh.

I’ve got a test in my sex and gender class this week, which I am not looking forward to. But I think that’s pretty much it, unless I’m mistaken. I have a pretty big research paper due in my religion class on april 8th and I really should be getting started on that. Dangit. I am so tired of writing papers. Although I did pull one out in a few hours on Wednesday. But, it was a pretty easy one. Ah well…

I’ve had a bit of a dying adventure tonight. I bought a uniform skirt for my Harry Potter costume (if we dress up for my harry potter and fantasy lit class on april 1st we get extra credit. ) But unfortunately the skirt was navy blue rather than the dark charcoal it was supposed to be. But I couldn’t dye it charcoal so I decided to dye it black. Its streaked the entire inside of my washer a nice blue color… hopefully it comes off.

Well, I’m off.

Wednesday, March 17, 2010

random late night mumblings

A photo of my newest nephew Colten shortly after he was born last year.

I have decided I have insomnia. But only when I’m at school. For the most part I sleep fine when I’m home in my bed. But the combination of worrying about getting up for class, an uncomfortable bed here and I don’t know what else, just causes me to be completely unable to sleep. Which super duper sucks. So I just popped a sleeping pill and I’m hoping it will actually work.. I kind of hate to be reliant on them, but hey you gotta do what you gotta do sometimes.

In other news, I have done the outline for my paper that’s due tomorrow. But I definitely need to actually write it. But hey that’s what all day tomorrow is for. Thank goodness for not having class until 5. I’m also reading The Handmaid’s Tale for my gender and religion class. Its quite an interesting book. I need to get through a bit more by Thursday. But knowing me I’ll probably just finish the book.
Only two more days left until the weekend!! And really a day and half cause I’m skipping my last class on Thursday. Shhh, don’t tell. I feel kinda bad. But I never skip class, so not really.

I really really want to take more pictures, but I just find my own life so boring that its hardly worth it. When I was around my nephew and he was there all day it made much more sense to document my days, because he was always changing and growing. Which would probably explain why parents have so many photos of their kids, esp if they’re photographer parents. I keep hearing my biological ticking. Which is stupid because I’m not even 20. But the fact that I have endometriosis makes me feel like I might have fertility problems when I do try to conceive. Which just sucks. Although I’d love to adopt a baby from Vietnam, or Russia or really anywhere. I think its awesome, but there are age restrictions and you have to make so much money. Not to mention the fact that the actual act of adopting costs A LOT. I don’t know, I have a while to think about it. And I mean really, I don’t need a kid at 20. I don’t have job, or a degree. Or any money for that matter.

Alas, I wonder why I’m so crazy sometimes. I look forward to sleep and hope that its coming soon.

Goodnight all!

Monday, March 15, 2010


Possible hairstyle for the wedding. It is on a beach, so not having to worry about humidity/wind would be great. Done by my lovely friend, she's the bride. She's kind of annoyingly gifted with hair.

Is it really only Monday? I refuse to believe it. It feels like I have been doing schoolwork for so long already. Only six more weeks, only six more weeks. I just have to tell myself that over and over. I have a paper due Wednesday that I really should start, but its just not happening tonight. I’ve already done a bunch of stuff. Need to read some more.

Spring break was rather uneventful. Finally got in some sunbathing. Not enough unfortunately. I’m still quite pale. Did lots of sleeping, which was very nice. I watched Coco Avant Chanel (Coco Before Chanel) last weekend. It was lovely. But heck, I love any movie that is in French.

I need more money. I made a bit of money last week, for taking headshots for my theatre. But unfortunately then my mom informs me that I have to pay off my laptop by June. Hm, she couldn’t have reminded me last year when I actually had money. No, now I have barely any to my name. well there goes the small amount I made last week. Guess I’m going to have to make some more since I still owe 500 on the laptop. Dangit.

I’m trying to figure out what I’m doing with school next semester. I really only need one more semester, so now I’m just trying to figure out if I can get all the classes I need, and where I’m going to live. Since the place I’m currently at doesn’t offer semester leases. CURSE THEM. I’m so over it already. And I would really just like to be done. Right now.

I am in desperate need of a job for this summer, but I’m rather afraid no one is going to hire me. And I really don’t want to have to babysit again. I’m so over it. I’d rather be bored somewhere, where at least there are other adults around. Money money, too bad we all need it.

Well, off to do something better with my time. Read or something.

Thursday, March 11, 2010

a slight departure from our normal programming

Isn’t it weird when your life’s going to shit and you just sit back and watch it all happen? Not to be melodramatic, but that’s kind of what’s happening. More to people around me and therefore I feel like I can’t shake this funk. I keep trying to plan my future and getting stuck in the next few months, weeks. What I want and what reality is are too very different things and I can’t figure out how to reconcile the two. I feel like life is kind of a giant catch 22. I need to make money to support myself, but I need to get this job that I want. But the job’s too hard to get. So I’ll have to find another job, but it won’t pay enough and I won’t really be able to support myself well. And because of changing circumstances in my life, coasting for a while, living at home, won’t really be an option when I graduate. Which kinda fucking sucks.

I know that I shouldn’t complain, I have a way better life that a lot of people and everything is petty and unimportant unless it's happening to you. We all deal with our personal dramas, they just come in different forms.

So, somehow my spring break hasn’t really worked out the way I thought it would. New Orleans didn’t go as planned, and I haven’t gotten to lay out (I know, poor me. But hey, that’s all I wanted to do this week.) So, it just kind of feels like everything sucks, which is stupid because I should try to just look on the bright side, and suck it up.

And now that I’ve totally depressed myself… tomorrows a brand new day. and hopefully it will be full of sunshine, sunbathing, and good photos.

Hey a girl can hope.

(no photo today, because i can't find my camera cord which pisses me off to no end..)

Monday, March 1, 2010

half way mark

Well I’m halfway through the semester. Actually I think halfway through was last week. So I’m more than halfway! Three more days and I’ll be on spring break which I am looking forward to A LOT. I’m heading off to New Orleans to see a friend perform in a show. And basically going to eat my way through nola. Because really, how can you not want to eat your way through that city?

After that, I’m planning on seeing Alice in Wonderland at some point. And hopefully it will be warm enough for laying out, beach and swimming. *fingers crossed*

Hopefully after spring break the semester will just fly by. Classes went up for the fall and I think my schedule will be okay. Its gonna be kind of random cause I think I’m only gonna have one class on m/w and a stupid Tuesday class that goes till 8 pm, which sucks. But other than that hopefully not too bad. And no class on Fridays again!! Woohoo.

I should be reading some article about misogyny and homophobia for my gender and religion class, but I just can’t seem to make myself finish it. and I have a test in that class on Thursday so I really should. My Harry Potter and fantasy lit class was canceled for tomorrow, so I only have two classes to go to. Yay!

Well, I’m off to reread Harry Potter and the Goblet of Fire.