Friday Funday aka Baby Madness

I spent probably 6 hours today reading adoption blogs when I wasn't taking care of my niece. Seriously.. I chatted with my friend Heather this morning (also probably the only one reading this) and she showed me some new ones. I mean I've already got a ton that I've read or continue to read but she showed me more. And huge families at that. with 5-9 kids. So jealous.

Seriously my dream is to have 4-6 kids. I know that this is insane and probably won't happen but we'll see.. My friend and I talked about how much we think about/read about/research kids/adoption/babies/sperm to buy (in my case only). She may have also called me crazier than her for shopping for sperm online. What??? That's normal for a 21 year old right?

I know, I know. That's not normal. But whatever.. I'll just look at all this time reading these blogs as great preparation for when I actually have/adopt kids. Mostly I just read them, look at their adorable kids and want to cry from jealousy over the pregnant women in the doctor's office yesterday. (Uh yeah.. kinda sucked being one of the only non-pregnant ones there).

But I took time away from my obsessive blog reading to take care of my 5 month old niece. Seriously I love that kid. Even when she refuses to sleep even though she's so tired. I also spent some time outside with her because she loves to be outside and it was a balmy 60 degrees here today! I talked with the neighbor girls next door about my dogs and then their mom. I also looked at my websites for my classes that start monday and my chem teacher has finally updated it and of course I need a book that I didn't really know I needed by wednesday. Gr. But I think that I can get it at the bookstore on Monday. BLEH. Stupid school, I am so over you.

I am definitely not looking forward to being on campus for 6-10 hours two days a week. How the heck am I going to pay attention for that long? Geeze. I also really need to get my school supplies together and get organized for this semester. I'm also pretty sure I'm supposed to read some stuff in my books for monday. Double bleh.

Who'd have thought it would be warm enough for bare feet in January in central Indiana?

Until next time..

random late night mumblings

A photo of my newest nephew Colten shortly after he was born last year.

I have decided I have insomnia. But only when I’m at school. For the most part I sleep fine when I’m home in my bed. But the combination of worrying about getting up for class, an uncomfortable bed here and I don’t know what else, just causes me to be completely unable to sleep. Which super duper sucks. So I just popped a sleeping pill and I’m hoping it will actually work.. I kind of hate to be reliant on them, but hey you gotta do what you gotta do sometimes.

In other news, I have done the outline for my paper that’s due tomorrow. But I definitely need to actually write it. But hey that’s what all day tomorrow is for. Thank goodness for not having class until 5. I’m also reading The Handmaid’s Tale for my gender and religion class. Its quite an interesting book. I need to get through a bit more by Thursday. But knowing me I’ll probably just finish the book.
Only two more days left until the weekend!! And really a day and half cause I’m skipping my last class on Thursday. Shhh, don’t tell. I feel kinda bad. But I never skip class, so not really.

I really really want to take more pictures, but I just find my own life so boring that its hardly worth it. When I was around my nephew and he was there all day it made much more sense to document my days, because he was always changing and growing. Which would probably explain why parents have so many photos of their kids, esp if they’re photographer parents. I keep hearing my biological ticking. Which is stupid because I’m not even 20. But the fact that I have endometriosis makes me feel like I might have fertility problems when I do try to conceive. Which just sucks. Although I’d love to adopt a baby from Vietnam, or Russia or really anywhere. I think its awesome, but there are age restrictions and you have to make so much money. Not to mention the fact that the actual act of adopting costs A LOT. I don’t know, I have a while to think about it. And I mean really, I don’t need a kid at 20. I don’t have job, or a degree. Or any money for that matter.

Alas, I wonder why I’m so crazy sometimes. I look forward to sleep and hope that its coming soon.

Goodnight all!